♥that girls not right in the brain!!!!!!!

jagged piece of glass

bearing no rights

haunting by myself

shall i give in?

and feel the sharp short relief

or go on in this misery

shooting, spinning

only to fall again the next day.

taunting image

lousy mirror

shredded hope,

and then he spoke.  <3

hey you guys!

i havent been on for a month.. so.. i thought i would fill u guys in. im in paris right now, visiting my amazing brother, and we are having the time of our life! or lives.. w/e.  and... ive been trying to learn how to rollerblade... but.. it sucks and i keep falling down.  im very sore, but that doesnt keep me from having fun. eiffle tower yesterday... it was one of the most beautiful sights i have ever seen in my life.  i wanna get proposed to up there, but.. that might not happen. i leave to go home next week.  and im in atlanta for a few days, and then off to boston to meet mike and and hang out and catch up with him. and then were gonna see boys like girls, good charlotte, metro station, and the maine on the 15th. which should be a real kickass time. i hope everyone is having a great summer! and sorry for not being here more often.

&hearts; jasmine

     "Julie wake up!"  Julie snoozed on.  "Julie, honey, I need you to get up."  Only when Alexis jumped on the bed and started licking her face did Julie really become aware of her mother knocking on the door.

     "Anna, I'm up!" She screamed back, eager to have her mom leave her alone so she could continue her sleep.

     "I'm taking your grandmother to church.  Do you want to come with us?"

     "NO!"  It was the same reply she gave every Sunday, but her mom never got the clue that Julie'd never step in a church again after her best friend's funeral.

     "Then you have to get up and fix breakfast for Toby and yourself.  Bye.  I love you."  And with that she left Julie in charge of the house, and to her disappointment, her little brother.

     Toby was sitting at the table with a fork and knife ready to demand food.  "I want bacon and eggs!"

     "Then fix them," Julie replied, but she was already getting out the pan to make him what he wanted.

     "Mom doesn't like you anymore," he said in a taunting little brother voice.

     "Yes she does," Julie snapped back.

     "She doesn't like you because you keep calling her Anna."

     "It's her name isn't it?"

     "Yeah, but she doesn't like you using it."

     "She's gotten over it by now.  Wait... how would you know she still doesn't like it?" She questioned.

     "She told me so.  I had a dream about it."

     "Whatever."  This never bothered Julie, and she wasn't about to let it start.  She thrusted the plate of food in front of her Toby and walked off to her room again.

     "Aren't you gonna eat something?  Vegans eat too you know!"

     "Not hungry!"  She shouted back.  "Just eat your food, don't burn the house down, and wake me up when Anna starts pulling into the driveway." SLAM!  Julie went back to sleep without another word.

     Julie woke up early on Sunday morning.  She sat awake in her bed, turned on the small lamp on her nightstand, and looked at the walls of her room.  There wasn't one square inch of wall that wasn't covered with either a My Chemical Romance poster or her drawings that she drew when she was lonely.

     Julie glanced over at her calendar.  Sure enough, only seven more days before she would be able to go to the MCR concert in Philly.  She clutched her ticket in her hand, turned on her stereo, and let her dog into her room.  As "Helena" blared in the backround, Julie danced with Alexis, who seemed to share the same excitement and anticipation.

     Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge continued to play but Julie could barely hear it.  She was daydreaing about what it would be like to finally meet them.  She wanted to tell Gerard how much he has inspired her to write and draw.

     But soon she fell back asleep.  She couldn't fight her eyelids any longer.  They had won.

someone called me a poser fan today... i hate bethany....

in my locker... i have a few pics of my favorite bands... like mcr for example.  she saw me open my locker and i looked at the mcr pic i have.  she went up to me and told me i was a poser fan because i thought they were hot.  she's the type of person with blonde hair and dresses in pink and she just started liking mcr about a month ago.  i know this shouldn't be bothering me cause she's probably more of a poser than me... but it really bugs me.  i think they are beautiful people... but i liked them when i brought you my bullets came out.  yeah... just thought i'd write this and get it out of me.

i just moved to Florida from Chicago.  Big move... it's gonna take some getting used to.  as i was unpacking my stuff, i came across an old photo album.  there were pictures of my mom with my dad.  i got all teary because my dad committed suicide the month that i was born.  he stabbed himself in the chest.  i'm all sad because i will never get to meet him.  but anyways.... going out with some new friends later this afternoon.  it should help clear my head.  i'm not sure how often i'll update the site... but ill try as often as i can. later...

-jasmine